New life , New beginning :)



why must life be difficult . u cant seem to trust anyone . when u are young , u are taught to trust ur parents , teachers . and u tried to impress them . the list goes on when u grow older and older but with new list of new people . u're required to impress ur friends , bff and even guys whom u're interested in . as i grow older , i had learn not to trust just anyone on the street . u're supposed to practice cautious aint u haha . ok enough random chat . what im trying to say is just be urself . dont try to be others just to impress them . u noe what i mean ;)



i want to work lahh .. i want iphone 4 haha . perangai siak hirdayu . keje stakat utk tu haha .. ok enough for nw . my brain is freezing and thus i don noe what to rite anymore :))



2 more days to go ;))

am at cyber cafe waiting for this stupid itune to be downloaded .. lembab siak .pukul 12 nk kene gerak . kalau lmbt maknenye kene jln . btol tk papa ?? haha .. * wink wink*

6 more days to go .. :))

I WANT IPHONE 4 !!! Currently at lib with with irritating sister , babygurl & sweetest syg :) Syg bought me cheese tart ! YUM .. thank sweetheart haha .. btw as i have stated here , i really want iphone .. anyone ? hehehe . should survey the market for the price hmm sometimes word can also be wrongly intepreted even by our loved ones ... 1 weeks , 7 days to go for 1 yr .. weeeee ~Y
:) :) :)

Blogger under maintenance ^^

i have nt posting a post for a long damn time .. i noe :)

Btw i truly miss my friends :( guys if u happen to come across my blog & read my entry , i just wanted to let ue guys know that i misses ue peeps . im aware that im not a gd friends and i have been negleting all of ue but seriously i miss ue guys . i miss all the time we spent at school and the time we spent together . forgive me guys -.-

moving on , i would like to wish HAPPY 11th ANNIVERSARY syg ! hope we last long ... ue have been the best company i could ever ask for . Ue have been there for me through every moments of my life . Ue have seen me through my saddest days . Ue have seen me through the weakest moment of my life . Ue have always pampered me like ur princess . Syg , thanks for always listening to me , supporting me and encouraging me . I know this might be cliche but just for ue toknow , i always luv you syg . Thanks for all the sad and happy memories . I will always cherished it . ♥

am i being stupid just for being patience in waiting for ue ?

anyway , my blog looks dead , i knw . practically im working for the whole week except for wed
-.- . i miss lots of my friends seyh :( i have been posted to branch on 8 of feb and its was dead boring i tell ue . frm 1130 to 830 we just sat there and memorise the stupid price list . people just walk past us as if we are invisible . im planning of going to the therapist side hehs .

on the important notes , i would like to wish my dearestt murni , HAPPY BELATED 17th BIRTHDAY . i know i sucks big time for forgetting ur b'dae . im so sorry dearestt :(

my blog look dead . i know haha . anyway let me update on what i have done for the past 1 week haha . hmm .. i have been schooling frm monday to friday without skipping . baek peyh hirdayu haha . i went out with my cousin on saturday morning to buy breakfast . he wake me up at 0630 in the morning just to company him go bugis to buy breakfast . imagine that . pffffttttttt .. then i went to meet rini . i promised rini that i will meet her at 2 pm but end up meeting her at close to 5 pm . im so sorry lurh dearestt . we went to queensway and then to changi village . going to changi village is my idea haha . takda keje kn hirdayu ni hahaha . anyway i learnt couple of new things frm her and that is " malaikat skateboarding , swimming , clubbing and cycling " . i laugh like what tell ue hahahaha . anyway its fun going out with ue haha . today i never go anywhere due to laziness haha . spent my whole day at home , talking to sarief and then going to the park above the carpark and then to the library . a busy day ? no i dont think so hahaha . tomorrow would be a busy day as i would bne going to ite simei for my lectures . ~weeeeee~ hahaha . shall update more when im free :)

Hello :) long time i never updated this blog . the reason is - im super busy >.< im have started schooling since 14 of january at jean yip and that cause my schedule to be tight . anyway above is my pictures with my dearestt murni . i think i look awful in this pictures . like seriously . dearestt said she wants to take my eyes haha . saje jek lah kau ni murni . amek urh . kau bleh uat souveniers kn hahahahahaha . i went out with her last saturday with dearestt rini and their friends called kecik if im not wrong . once again im a bad information counter hahahaha . anyway i pity kecik as he is being interrogated by rini when he is eating . bising siak mulut rini hahahaha .
anyway had fun going out with them . love ue guys lotxxxx :DD

On sunday , i company my mum and then went out with iskandar . irritating freak sia he . he drag to all the shoe shop there is in bukit panjang just to buy soccer shoe . pffffftttttttttt .... anyway had fun going out with ue too :) im missing sarief like what now . seriously .

11jan2010 = DOOMSDAY -.-

im damned scared for the results . could i just dont take it ? hahaha . anyway thanks for all the wishes and presents guys :-D

seriously , im too tired for anymore drama :-( ue never gave me the opportunity to explain myself . NEVER ! ue have known me for 16 years butbutbut just because of 1 idiotic boy we are fighting . is it worth it ? sometimes i wonder whether ue know me . i have said sorry for several times but still ue insist that its my fault . i have said for the millions time i have nothing to do with him ! i would never , ever do anything to hurt ue , my dearest cousin and ue know that . ue still insists that this whole fucking stupid thing is my damn fault then fine . im dont care anymore and seriously im done with my job of saying sorry eventhough its not my fault .

Next , to muhd daniel arrifin , thanks for all the problem ue have created for me . i dont know what ue want frm me and i hate ue for what ue do . sometimes i used to regret that i know ue but then its nobody faults that we get to know each other . i hate ue not because of ue being my ex but because of ur fucking attitude that got me into trouble . i hope ue are happy now that ue manage to make me being hated by my own cousins huh . frm now on just consider that we dont know each other and stop talking about me infront of ur own gf . ue need to learn how to be faithful huh . seriously mind ur own business and get the fucking out of my life .

"I've been spending all my time

Just thinking about ya

I don't know where to

I think i'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my life

And now i found ya

I don't know where to

I think i'm fallin' for you

I'm fallin' for you"

Hello people :)) long time i have not updated this blog . hehs . oh firstly , i wanna thanks rini for accompanying me on saturday . hehs thank you so much . i am damned bored right now . seriously . oh mummy would be going on vacation for 3 whole day . pffffftttttt ... haha im pissed of but still i will miss ue hahaha . to all my cousins , sorie for not able to reach me hehs , now that i have topup , i shall meet ue all in due course hahahaha . i know ue all miss me right haha . to my dearestt brother , abg faizal , it's been a pleasure going out with ue and thanks for the time . hehs . im damned bored cause i have nothing better to do right now hahahaha . spent my whole morning helping my mum then my evening talking to sarief :-) and then going to the library . am planning to meet my cousin , khai at bugis afterward but then im kinda of lazy sooooo i cancelled . hehs pemalas pe hirdayu hahahahaha . sorie lurh , shall meet ue tomorrow , promise ;-D anyway im planning to stay at home and dye my hair using my mum dye and her unsincere permission hahahaha ue know , i know , public dont know do they . hahaha . oh yeah the lyrics above is for someone outside this country whom i have just been talking to on the phone . i think im falling for him but im scared to tell him hehs . i think my friends would know whom im talking about dont they hahahaha ;-DD shall update more later :]]

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her... "

hellooo people :DD as im not working today , i shall update a post :] im damned bored and had nowhere else to go haha . had to cancelled my plan with my cousin due to some unforseen matters hahahahaha . mcm paham . actually ku mls haha . to my cousin , sorie lurh . nxt time we meet ok . haha i know ue miss me . hehs . the poem above is found by me inside a book i read . sweet isnt it hahaha . is there a boy like that ? hmm ..... seriously i dont know what to update already . im having a mind block lurh hahahahahahaha . mcm paham siak hirdayu . shall update more later when my mind block have melted hahahahaha ........ ;-D

hello human :DD i miss this blog so much hahaha . anyway just wanna say thanks to my cousin khai for that treat haha . and to rini , errr .. i still think i look funny in my stupid uniform haha . aniway thanks for the comment . missss ue so much lurhh ;) ok basically for today my activity is mainly going out , watching tv , talking to sarief and going to library to update this post hehs . i spent my practically whole morning going out with my cousin who constantly irritate me . pffffttttt ... still had fun going out with ue , khai hehehe . oh and i remembered ur b'dae lahhh .. shall celebrate with ue when i have time . bsok b'dae , skarang dah kecoh hahaha . so will wish ue now :DD HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY MY DEAR COUSIN , MUHD KHAIRUL !!! oh and HAPPY THIRD ANNI WITH ISABELL . hehs byk pe kene wish . anyway last long huh . i will meet ue next friday hahahaha .. paham2 jek lah eyh hehe .. moving on , my dear mummy will be going to malaysia tomorrow . cant follow cause im working :( boring pe hahaha .. anyway after going out , i waste my evening watching tv and then calling sarief . enjoy talking to him hahaha . oh i owe ue something dont i haha . shall ask mummy to topup for me before she go malaysia hehehe . ok lurh shall update more next friday . hehs . TTFN :DD

p.s ; to khai , ue irritate me one more time i shall not buy ue anything hehe . oh i will complain to isabell . serious tau . hahahahaha ..

helloo humans :) had nothing better to do while waiting for time for me to go to works so thought of posting an new entry hehe .. was waken by my irritating at 6 am in the morning just to prepare food for her picnic . imagine that waking me up 2hr early than my usual waking time just to cook for her . pfffffttttttttt .... still i woke up and help her prepare :] baek perh hirdayu hahahaha ... hmm .. so for this whole week i will not have any free time in the evening except for friday . am waiting patiently for that day haha .. im missing quite alot of peeps . mainly my dearests 4 sisters , 2 cousins especially aqilah and wanie . dah lamer seyh tk jumpe korang :-( . my cousin , khai which i will be meeting this friday . jgn luper eyh .. my sister . sarief which i miss sososososo much hehs . lastly , my dearestt school and the stupid works we do . hahaha . oh yess i do miss school . funny isnt it but its true . tulah biler suroh gy skolah malas , biler tk payah rindu plak hahahaha .. i tend to miss alots of people haiyoo .. :-( :-( :-( shall ask my peeps if they are free on friday hehehehe .. that if they are not working . busy katekn hahahaha .. oh anyway mummy just gave me money to topup . hehe shall topup straight after i update this . its 2.02 pm , so shall go home and get ready for works . will update more on friday or when im free in the morning hehhs ...

hey people :] im missing blogger for a weeks now . hehs . im damn bored right nw and i cant msg anyone . pffffttt ... shall ask mummy to topup for me . im also missing my friends nw due to working . my only free day is only on friday seyh . shall make full use of my friday nw . hehehe . oh yeah , to my cousin khai , i would be meeting ue on nxt friday k cause on sat im working . im missing somebody already although i have just texted him , to help him yesterday . miss him so much seyh . hehs . oh the only good news is that i would be taking off on the 19th to company my mum to negeri sembilan to meet my sis . miss her so much and i would getting new little bro . hehs so congratulations sweetheart !! actually am planning to just sleep today as have nothing better to do but had to company my mum buy groceries . am a good daughter so i followed her . haha mcm paham siak hirdayu . hehs . oh library is closing nw so shall update more on nxt friday . btw , to rini & murni , how do i look in my stupid working costume ? hahahahahaha ..

"Anybody can love a rose

but its take a great deal to love a leaf !

Dont love someone just because of their looks and standard

but love the one who could make ur life beautiful :D"

Hello everyone !! im dead bored . hehe . anyway the poem above is frm my mum 's boify who gave it to her for their 1 mths . hehs ur boify is soooooo sweet lurh mummy haha . anyway actually i planned to stay at home and waste my time but at last i decided to go to the library to update this post . hehs . daripade buang mase di rumah lebih baik update . haha . spent my whole morning watching tv then talk on phone with sarief in the afternoon and then take my sis . ohh .. btw my cousin khai had promised to treat me to the movie for my this years b'dae . err .. good timing isn't he ? my b'dae is on 7 jan 2009 but got pressie frm him on 13 dec 2009 ? awal sungguh hadiah kau tu hahaha . still im not the one to complain when someone gave me something so i would like to take this opportunity to say thank you cousin hahahaha . so that aside , i am planning to follow my 2nd younger sis shopping tommorow as she would be treating me . thats the reason im following her . hehehe . mum 's is nagging at me asking when i would be searching for jobs . haha . felt like sitting at home and ask for money only butbutbut i would be seriously bored if i do that hehs so would definitely search for jobs soon . and i would also like to wish farewell to daniel . hehs although ue are the one that used to caused me to drop my tears at night still ue are still my cousin . andandand because of ue i get to know sarief so no complain there . hehs so safely go there and come back .

i miss my daddy . seriously . although he has taken my hp still i do miss him . dad , ue have once promised that no matter what ue would not miss my b'dae so do come back and see me on my b'dae . im not angry at ue anymore . seriously . ue are my dad and forever will be so please come back and see me on my b'dae . i know ue will be reading this dad . so wherever ue are hope ue are well . miss ue lotsssss .........

I am not changing , im just rearranging my life to be with ue :)

Ok , long time since i last update this blog . hehs . Anyway i just wanna wish my kakak sedare , happy wedding ! ily so much andand hope ue are happy . btw ur hubby is hot , seriously haha . he is frm errrr .. ayer hitam , malaysia if im nt wrong . haha . im a seriously useless information counter ue could ever find seriously hahahaha .. oh kak , btw to answer ur question just nw , i dont think , never thought and would never think that people frm malaysia are of a different standard than we are . all are the same and that is human ! haha . so dont mind what other people are saying . hehs and hope once more that ue are happy .

Moving on , i would like to thanks my cousin , khai , for helping me solving the problems that i have with my mum . hehs . thank you so much .. i owe ue big time andandand i promise will treat ue on nxt saturday . promise !!

Last but nt least , HAPPY BELATED 16th BIRTHDAY NUR SHAFEEQA !!!! hehs i knew its kind of late butbut still i remembered ur b'dae hehehe .. her b'dae is on 4th of december hehs .

HAPPY 16th B'DAE RINI HARYANTY :DDD

Ok today is the b'dae of the gurl whom is holding the phone . She is the gurl whom always never fail to make me laugh when im feeling down or angry . hehs . Thanks for being able to stand me when im in tantrums haha . She always smile andandand stay cheerful always prettyhead . Love ue lots2 lurh . haha . Hope ue enjoy my pressie . penat tau buat haha . Hope our friendship will never ever fade . hehs

Rini haryanty loved !!

I AM SERIOUSLY PISS OFF TODAY!!!!

Ok here is the thing . just nw dearestt text me and ask me whether i have given her number to anybody and seriously i am fucking shocked ! cause i had never ever and will never ever give any of peoples number to anyone without their permission and i am fucking serious ! To dearestt , i frankly dont know who gave ur number or how the hell that person get ur number . I am sosososososo sorry . Please dont be angry with me ! I am nt a matchmaker and i will never be . Believe me i would have asked ur permission if i ever want to give ur number . Dont be angry will ue ?? To that person , since when have i given anybody number to ue ? please dont put words in my mouth . seriously i hate that ! pffffffttttttttttttt .......

On a happy notes , i would like to thank rini for accompanying me today . hehe and i would also like to thank sarief for talking to me hours when i am with rini meeting her friends . Love ue lurhh ....

Dearestt i am sososososososo sorry .. i really have no idea how this happen and i swear that I DID NOT GIVE UR NUMBER TO ANYBODY . Please dont be mad at me . I hate it when my bestie is mad at me .

Seriously, i am glad that everything is fine between us :-D

ok i am damn bored right now:)) just came back frm accompany murni dearestt ate macdonald.tibe2 jek mengidam haha:D anyway both two gurls on the pictures is my best gurlfrens. they made my enjoyable being with them everyday haha.actually planning to jog today butbutbut rini cant make it due to private problems muahahahaha and murni didnt bring attire for jogging so cancelled.haha aru jek semangat nk jogging haha. ohh im getting my lappy this sunday hahaha and im damned happy:DDD

Rini && Murni is loved YYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!